Calm The Chatter My Friend

Over the last few days, I have been able to sit still and think.

This experience has been uncomfortable. 

I have explored why would I have such rush emotions around being still.

After a few days of committing to a morning mediation,

I realized I was scared.

In that moment,
I felt overwhelmed and nervous to sit with my own private thoughts.
Usually when I am scared or feel anxious, I do what most women do first.

I called my best friend.

*Chuckles*

If she doesn't answers the phone,  I will call two more friends.

*chuckles harder*

If no one answers their phone I realize that God wants me to work on this alone.

*It's rule I designed to reason with myself*

Since no one answered the phone,

I sat in my room quietly,

cried softly,

*which is a rare thing for me to do, I do not live up to my water bearer sign much*

letting my thoughts flow

through me..

Allowing myself to feel every emotion

What I have came to realize that much of the anxiety is surround FEAR..

failing..

 not accomplishing goals

or

 simply giving up on myself...

I decided to work through my anxiety.

This will not be a easy process but I want to make positive choices.

I am beginning to find more material to read to enhance my confidence,

blogging/writing is a obviously becoming a outlet,

 and

 sitting still will definitely be a part of my daily routine.

As for parting words for this entry, tell me how have you overcome your fear?

I really do want to hear some feedback from you.

*Here's a link I found on Facebook via friend about mediation*

Calming the Chatter in the Mind

Also one of these days I will be able to do this position