Single.. and Not Sleepless

I have watch many of the Youtubers online participate in this online series of "The Single Life". The Youtubers speak on behalf of singles and there reason for their singlehood over entering into a relationship.

I found some inspiration from the mini films to speak about my experience being single.

I don't have an actually own a camera so envision me speaking via cam! *wink! :)

Why am I single?

Singlehood is a enjoyable time for me. Of course loneliness and dark feelings creeps around periodically. However, I have learned so much about my characteristics by not trying to mesh with someone quickly. After having a few dating experiences, I realized I morph for the other person while I am dating them. I have tried to developed some taste buds for music and other interests. This was very difficult because naturally I wasn't being myself. I was trying to please and fit in a box.

Pressure from friends and colleges to have dates at parties send me into a dating or "friendship" frenzy. I constantly developed unnecessary and YES I said unnecessary friendships with men to have a man on my arm or someone to speak of. I want to appear that I wasn't the lonely friend or to simply stop the questions.

So.. I took a break from my "friendships" and focus on things I like, enjoyed, what felt good for me.

Then it happen! I was struck by love so hard.

I fell in love with........ myself.

I slowly so started to appreciate the small things about myself. The things we wait for men to say to us. Like my freckles under my eyes which one of the favorite things about my body or great my calves look when I pass a mirror. *I know, I know! *

I simply stop trying to be this image of perfection with the great man.... and appreciate what I have as one unit first.

How can I fall in love or developed a relationship when I am not confident in myself 1st?

Now.. I can say proudly. I AM SINGLE!!

I am not where I want to be but I am sure as ever not where I was.

Caziah